all nature leads to higher entropy

It aint easy being mean.

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 04:57:04 +0200

Due to my Philisophical stand point it is very easy for me to justify doing anything to anyone.
For instance I could go into the next room and end the life of one of my flatmates (I will not because I am fond of them) I could justify this by saying either
1.that I cannot be sure of my flatmates level of sentience, i.e. He is not alive (by *my definition* see later)in the first place, or
2. that I cant prove his existance so why worry about the "death of something which can't be proven to exist? Let me explain this last one, Reality is very difficult to define, In terms of senses reality is touch and smell but these are just representations of reality your mind creates after receiveing signals from your hands and nose.( The film "the matrix" explores this idea quite well)
So you see there is no guarantee that you are actualy are where you believe to be, so why worry about what you do there?

[*My definition of alive is the point at which a entitiy can think "what?" or "why?". by this definition animals : chickens and the like are not alive (which is quite reasuring as I am omnivorous.)]

If you want my respect as a fellow human being, (and therefore have the right not to be murderd, robbed and/or tortured.) then you would have to meet the following spiritual and philisophical requirements:

1. Spent at least an entire year thinking about what life is, what purpose you think your life should have and what you need to acheive that goal.
[I did this 5 years ago, I hypothosised that life is ultimately pointless, in terms of deity given purpose, and that the only thing I can do is make a relatively big difference to the world to be rememberd for a while after my death. Positive or negative? I'm not sure yet.]

2. Value fellow human beings lives above that of animals, I don't care how fluffy they are, or innanimate objects i.e. money , even if the person in question is black, gay, a fellon or has views aposing your own.

3.Understand that it is highly unlikely a God figure created anything in fact, that creation is a human concept and cannot be applied to the world as it was not built by us or any rules which we could conceive of.

4. Value above all others givers of knowledge and students of the sciences.

5. realise that it is human nature to point out differences between each other and to fear that which is different, this is the basis of racism, classism, sexism and religious friction.
For far too long people have hated each other for illogical reasons, Unified the human race could acheive so much more but instead we squabble over the pettiest most riddiculous differences.

6.Have a respect for art but do not put artists on a pedastal everyone can and should create art, Art should be viewed as a valuable and highly respected past-time but not a full time job.

If you can acheive all these things then you are a human being worthy of life and I will not take it from you.

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Too late?

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 23:00:27 +0200

Its around 19 days till my first exam, in physics. These are possibly the hardest examinations I have ever had in my entire life.
The fact that my friend, whos doing the same course, dosn't bother his arse to do anything is causing me to fall into apathy, which I can't afford to do.
My girlfriend and me are on shaky ground as I'm slowly loosing interest, and I have to move to france for my placement in august.
In a way I wish we could just agree not to be together for that year so I can get all the sex out of my system rather than hurt her.

Is going to France a good idea?
Am i up to the task?
won't I be lonely?
Am I overestimating my attractiveness? shouyld I just settle for her?

Yes I admit it, I'm not over my ex. She lives with me and 4 others, its been over 2 years since we went out, for 5 months, having her parade around scantily sclad is causing me to obsess.
A year away from her will be good, I'll forget about her...unless I'm in love with her..
I think I'm in love with the idea of her but the reality would probably be a huge let down.

I cant talk myself out of it.
I guess I've got to play it as it comes.

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A little obssesive perhaps?

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 15:39:13 +0200

This will be a blog concerning love, lust, want and confusion. The difference between lust and want being illustated thusly.
Lust is uncontrollable, to label it with the words insatiable thirst would be dismissive though it has been described by this phrase more often than not. Yet agin the english language fails to have an accurate word to proplerly describe an abstract concept.
The closest words I feel are need and yearn.

The matter at hand:
I lust for a woman who is unatainable,for a few reasons, she dosn't want me being the most obvious and the most desimating of the points proposed.
I am in a relationship with a girl that I think I'm in love with, but don't lust after.
(I want ever other girl I see recently I'm not sure whats wrong with me.)
Bes is currently involved( though not too deeply) with a man called craig, who is really quite ugly, but I have no doubt is a social butterfly (cunt) which is what bes finds attractive.

At this point I'd like to put into percentages the success of any action I could take:

Break up with emma, admit I'm still not over bes and ask her to go out with me again.
likelyness of success: 5%

Break up with emma, dont tell her why.
Bide my time until both me and bes are single and drunk and then make my move.
LoS:25%

Continue with emma like nothing is wrong and end up in a long term relationship that is founded on nothing other than my desire not to be alone.
LoS: 80%

I don't know what to do.
For the first time in my life I'm afraid of taking action. I love emma and do lust after her but I lust after bes and other girls more.
I don't know what to do.

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