Its around 19 days till my first exam, in physics. These are possibly the hardest examinations I have ever had in my entire life.
The fact that my friend, whos doing the same course, dosn't bother his arse to do anything is causing me to fall into apathy, which I can't afford to do.
My girlfriend and me are on shaky ground as I'm slowly loosing interest, and I have to move to france for my placement in august.
In a way I wish we could just agree not to be together for that year so I can get all the sex out of my system rather than hurt her.
Is going to France a good idea?
Am i up to the task?
won't I be lonely?
Am I overestimating my attractiveness? shouyld I just settle for her?
Yes I admit it, I'm not over my ex. She lives with me and 4 others, its been over 2 years since we went out, for 5 months, having her parade around scantily sclad is causing me to obsess.
A year away from her will be good, I'll forget about her...unless I'm in love with her..
I think I'm in love with the idea of her but the reality would probably be a huge let down.
I cant talk myself out of it.
I guess I've got to play it as it comes.
